Friday, October 26, 2012

Faith, Hope, and Love can heal a wounded Veteran

I've been suffering for a long time now. I remember first going to the Philadelphia VA Medical Center in December of 2005. Something was wrong but I just couldn't pinpoint what it was. Almost seven years later I still can't say exactly what is wrong with me. I've been told I have a Traumatic Brain Injury; Post-Traumatic Stress; migraine headaches; depression and anxiety. Life has been an ebb and tide sort of series of ups and downs. So many good things have come to pass, including the birth of my son Matthew, but nothing has been powerful enough to literally SNAP ME OUT OF MY FUNK!

My hope is that is all about to change. I've wondered how I lost the kind of focus I had during combat operations. I seemed to have lost hope in all that I've aspired to be as a man, a father, and a husband. I've wondered why I've drifted away from my faith. I've certainly wondered why I can't quite feel the love in my life and experience the level of happiness I deserve. What I think I've lost is a combination of Faith, Hope, and Love. These three powerful forces are described in the Bible in 1st Corinthians, section 13, "these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love." The entire chapter is powerful. I was on a plane the other day writing about life and the thought came to me about this chapter. I continued to write about how I can turn back towards my faith. I can begin to pray Psalm 91 each morning as I did every day in combat. I can thank God for my life and my family. I can hope for a brighter future. I can hope for all that is good and healthy in my life and family to only increase. Finally, I can love myself again. I had lost that. I know now that I have to love myself before I can fully love others. I have to love my life before I can truly live it. I can be ready for love to enter my life through my family and friends and the blessings of people like my Uncle Ed who is dying of cancer. I saw Uncle Ed while in Florida and we had precious times together. My child played on the floor while Uncle Ed sat back and watched him in wonder. It could very well be the last time we would see Uncle Ed alive and we did the right thing... we cherished every moment of it. We talked of serious things, but more importantly, we smiled and laughed as well.

So it is time to turn a corner. I would invite anyone who has suffered the way I have to turn it with me. Let's see each other, face to face, with the greatest potential for having Faith, Hope, and Love in our lives once again. I'm smiling now just thinking about the possibilities. Just writing this short passage has lifted me up another notch. I want to be responsible for lifting others up and being cheerful about life. Life is too short to waste. My father lived to be 67. Uncle Ed is now 67. That is just too young to die. So I can make it possible for my father to live again in me. I can carry the legacy of love my Uncle Ed sowed. I can be a source of Faith, Hope, and Love. Think about it and give it a try. Read 1st Corinthians 13 and Psalm 91. We are never alone when we have God in our hearts. For the first time in a long time I have a lasting sense that things are going to be alright. This is a life changing moment for me and I can only hope you too can feel the gravity of it. Life is short and now is the time to turn it around, TO FINALLY SNAP OUT OF IT!

So God Bless me and God Bless you if this passage has reached your heart. For whatever good I can do while I'm alive and truly living, I can be so very proud of that!

Friday, June 8, 2012

Memorial Day article in the Philadelphia Inquirer

Sorry I forgot to post this. Please have a read if you have the time. It is a good article. A little too personal and one has to remember they are talking with a reporter, but I kind of got wrapped up in the moment. Thanks again for your comments and feedback...

Summer 2012 update

I rarely have the opportunity to write about anything lately now that I am working again. I had a good Memorial Day. I thought quite a bit about SGT Dale Hardiman and those we lost in Iraq. I've prayed quite a bit for SFC Raymond (Chris) Moreno who is currently serving in Afghanistan. I believe Santana Bushnell is also going there or is there.
Combat in my mind never ends. I've been fortunate lately with great care from the Wilmington, DE Vet Center and the doctors of the Wilmington VAMC.
Anyone wishing to get in touch with me, please leave me a message on my web site:

God Bless and take care,

Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Blog article from the Defense Centers for Excellence

Please take a few minutes to read about the circumstances of the discovery of my Traumatic Brain Injury and how other Veterans may learn from what was a lack of information and understanding at the time.

Thank you for sharing this as necessary with friends, family and our Veterans that need the info!


Monday, March 5, 2012

Task Force Dragoon - MUC Award Ceremony on 3/11/12 at 1 PM

Please attend if possible. The best of the best Combat Engineers will be there to accept their honor for service in Iraq during 2004-2005.

The TF Dragoon story on Wiki:

Historic Fort Mifflin

Monday, January 9, 2012

WHYY 91FM Interview with Dr. Dan Gottlieb available by podcast

Please visit the WHYY website to download a copy of the MP3 sound file or Listen on the site to the hour-long interview that really made my year.

Thank you Dan!

"Voices in the Family" can be heard each Monday from Noon to 1 PM

Here is a link to the broadcast: Scroll down to the 12/12/2011 interview